Friday, February 17, 2012

Letting Things Go

I've been on another little Bikram stint and after working hard and sweating hard in class, I lay in that silent room and let my thoughts come and go as they may for a few minutes. Many times that is where I get my prayers in too; it is the optimum time! One thought that frequently enters my mind is how much I want to be better at letting things go, particularly things that don't matter a whole lot. Like keeping the house clean.



There are countless times that I tell myself I will be different, even if just for that day... I'll go home, turn some music on, dance around the living room with the boys, smother my phone under a pillow, not do laundry/dishes/errands... just BE with my boys. This is incredibly hard for us women/mothers, no?! I feel that I am good at giving them my undivided attention and time when they demand it, but I don't always voluntarily do that. One thing that I admire about D and find very attractive is that he has no problem doing NOTHING. It drives me nuts! I came home from my class today and Croz was scooping a big pile of junky toys over and over with his scooper. Jig was roaming around just hanging out. And D had his electric plugged into the amp, jamming up a storm.



This is what I love. My first instinct: clothes in the wash, get lunch going, ask Croz if he's gone to the bathroom, look at my calendar on my phone, yada yada! But I just sat down next to D, hugged my knees to my chest, and took it all in. Jig came over with his signature smile and started driving a car down my leg. I am learning to let things go.

2 comments:

Jackie Sanders said...

I think you NAILED IT! when you said women/mothers don't do nothing, but men do (in a good way :)) I diddo what you said about giving them attention when they are needing it, but what about when they don't?
I hear ya sister, and I love this post! Esp the pict. of D just sitting. Lis, just sit, and keep smothering that phone!!

Kerstin said...

I love this post! I so relate to ever ything you said. How are boys so good at just sitting down and playing with the kids and not worrying about the to dos? I guess they could learn a little from us about keeping on task and we could learn a little from them about not worrying about tasks. :) And I didn't know you started Bikram again, very cool.